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Saturday, February 17, 2007
Dilemma, God and me
“Results was posted in office. Everyone passed macro. “
I didn’t get to see the results myself. Heard this from my coursemate. Really happy for everyone that they pass because whether they get to continue depends on this paper (though some still have another supplementary papers to depend on). Some get to go on with what they originally set out to do. Some changed course and got a place at J.C, which is another school of economics under the wing of the uni.
Oh well for me… I really don’t know. Mixed feelings upon hearing the news. Guess, most of you have not heard about my great dilemma. Here it is.
On one hand, I want to pass so that I don’t waste my efforts in 2006 and during the holidays studying for it. I was pretty upset when I learnt that I had to take a supplementary paper. Ruined my holidays and that means everything will be on hold.
I wanted to just give up and stopped pursuing my studies. Why pursue it when my grades are so lousy. The road is tough. And the job market is fantastic. I sent 2 job applications to widen my options and I got called up for interview! Ha. At least I’m still employable huh. Well, it’s mainly because I’m still young and fresh from school. Wonder what happens when I hit 30… oh boy.
Alright, on the other side of the coin, if I don’t pass, I’ll be able to obtain further exemptions in the 2 universities I applied. What the heck right? Ok I understand their rational. Their rational is that the courses I studied are to obtain the current qualification and not the next qualification. I’ve ‘utilized’ these courses so I can’t use them anymore.
How, now that I’ve passed and graduated? Very thankful to God for the results and for letting things turn out the way He wants it to be. Yet I am in a dilemma when I took the paper. To take or not to take. To pass or not to pass. Isn’t it more worth if I don’t take the paper or fail the paper instead, if you count the cost? Decided to take the paper eventually and leave my great dilemma to my great God to decide for me. And He decided to pass me. Presto. Now I have to decide what to do.
What does God want me to do? Continue studying? If so, which course? To study in a field that I’m not familiar in, I’m really not comfortable because I don’t want to waste my efforts in building up the knowledge that I’ve learnt in 2006. I wanna build on it. Not start brand new. Go back and work? Will I get a job? Yes, there are opportunities but how long can it last? The economy is so flippant and cyclical. Moreover, after a few years, it will be time for me to further my studies to gain more knowledge and up my skills again. So isn’t that what I’m doing now? Why stop when I’m already in it and I have the momentum. I don't think I will be to pick up studying again in my 30s. Who knows what commitment I have later in life? Now or never.
But gosh… God what should I do? What is Your will? Tell me, God? Tell me. Tell me.
Labels: decisions
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
Dilemma, God and me
“Results was posted in office. Everyone passed macro. “
I didn’t get to see the results myself. Heard this from my coursemate. Really happy for everyone that they pass because whether they get to continue depends on this paper (though some still have another supplementary papers to depend on). Some get to go on with what they originally set out to do. Some changed course and got a place at J.C, which is another school of economics under the wing of the uni.
Oh well for me… I really don’t know. Mixed feelings upon hearing the news. Guess, most of you have not heard about my great dilemma. Here it is.
On one hand, I want to pass so that I don’t waste my efforts in 2006 and during the holidays studying for it. I was pretty upset when I learnt that I had to take a supplementary paper. Ruined my holidays and that means everything will be on hold.
I wanted to just give up and stopped pursuing my studies. Why pursue it when my grades are so lousy. The road is tough. And the job market is fantastic. I sent 2 job applications to widen my options and I got called up for interview! Ha. At least I’m still employable huh. Well, it’s mainly because I’m still young and fresh from school. Wonder what happens when I hit 30… oh boy.
Alright, on the other side of the coin, if I don’t pass, I’ll be able to obtain further exemptions in the 2 universities I applied. What the heck right? Ok I understand their rational. Their rational is that the courses I studied are to obtain the current qualification and not the next qualification. I’ve ‘utilized’ these courses so I can’t use them anymore.
How, now that I’ve passed and graduated? Very thankful to God for the results and for letting things turn out the way He wants it to be. Yet I am in a dilemma when I took the paper. To take or not to take. To pass or not to pass. Isn’t it more worth if I don’t take the paper or fail the paper instead, if you count the cost? Decided to take the paper eventually and leave my great dilemma to my great God to decide for me. And He decided to pass me. Presto. Now I have to decide what to do.
What does God want me to do? Continue studying? If so, which course? To study in a field that I’m not familiar in, I’m really not comfortable because I don’t want to waste my efforts in building up the knowledge that I’ve learnt in 2006. I wanna build on it. Not start brand new. Go back and work? Will I get a job? Yes, there are opportunities but how long can it last? The economy is so flippant and cyclical. Moreover, after a few years, it will be time for me to further my studies to gain more knowledge and up my skills again. So isn’t that what I’m doing now? Why stop when I’m already in it and I have the momentum. I don't think I will be to pick up studying again in my 30s. Who knows what commitment I have later in life? Now or never.
But gosh… God what should I do? What is Your will? Tell me, God? Tell me. Tell me.
Labels: decisions
